About Me
When I was 13 years old, my life changed drastically. The summer of my 8th grade year, my secret that I had kept so carefully hidden ever since I was a little girl was finally discovered; I was diagnosed with anorexia-nervousa in a depressive state. After four hospitalizations from heart complications, diagnosis of various conditions due to my health’s state, and innumerable nights of battling suicide and cutting, here I am. I’ve been attending an out-patient treatment facility for almost four years now, the second time around. The summer of 2011 I was released at a “healthy” place, only to end up back there after an intervention on my parents behalf 5 months later. Currently, I am quite literally at rock bottom. I’m taking the maximum dose of anti-d that any one person can, I’m attending my 6 hours of therapy and doctor/nutrition advice every Tuesday, and yet I am struggling now more than ever. I woke up a few days ago, and looked in the mirror. I looked at how the last time I wrote was over four months ago. I looked at all my lost relationships and friendships, and how in about a year I will be away at college. I want to get my life back together. 17 years is long enough.
So, why exactly am I telling you this, you ask? I recently realized how helping people gives me a sense of purpose to my life. A sense that my life does matter. I hope that by sharing my story, and basically the beginning of my recovery as I struggle to keep the glimmer of hope that has recently returned, I can inspire and help others through whatever struggles they may have. Also, I really would enjoy getting back in to writing. I guess this blog is a matter of discovering myself and who exactly “Candace” is, because currently I’m a stranger, even to myself.
Rediscovering a Stolen Life 
I believe in your fight, and I support you as a person!
Thank you! that means a lot to me.
Your wrtiting is beautiful, and intelligent, and thoughtful. I look forward to reading more of it, and hope you never stop fighting.
This life can be so lonely, but know that, you’re not completely alone.
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Thank you, very much. It means a lot to me that you take the time to read what I write, and truly discover the meanings behind my diction and syntax. I appreciate your support and encouragment. This is definitely the hardest thing I have ever done, but I know there has to be a reason. And though this battle is a lonely journey and we may all feel like that, at least we are all together in that.
I thoroughly enjoy your writing. I applaud you for taking your incredible story to WordPress and sharing with all of us. It’s beautiful, haunting, and quite intelligent – a perfect concoction. Keep on fighting and I’m looking forward to returning and reading more. 🙂
Thank you so much! I am so very glad that you enjoy it so. I appreciate your praise and encouragement and am very pleased to know that I can effectively convey my emotion through my writing. 🙂
You’re absolutely welcome! I would also like to note that you just became my 100th follower. Expect your name to be mentioned when I make my 100th post tomorrow as well.
Ah, is that so? In that case, I am honored to be your 100th follower. I will await with baited breath for the presence of your next post.
E.B White, one of my favorite writers said, ““Remember that writing is translation, and the opus to be translated is yourself.” I am reminded of that reading your postings.
E.B. White is one of my all-time favorites as well. Thank you for your kind words.
I know I’ve only just discovered your writing, however I’m having a hard time veering my eyes away from your work. The poems are phenomenal and your essays are riveting. If you would ever consider, I would love to have you guest blog if you’re interested. I am extending the invitation your way so please let me know 🙂
Oh wow, that is quite the compliment. Thank you very much! I am not exactly sure what all is entitled to guess blogging, so some enlightening would be helpful? However, I do believe that I will be more than joyful to accept your invitation. 🙂
No problem! Basically all you have to do is write something and I post it on my blog, and of course, give you credit for it. It’s mainly to show your work to all of my readers that you may not yet be exposed to. You may write about anything you’d like such as your story about your experiences with anorexia, or maybe one of your beautiful poems, just to name a few examples. However, it’s totally up to you. Then I’ll post it and everyone can read your wonderful work!!
Oh my, this certainly very flattering that you think this highly of my work. Of course I am interested! I would love to write and allow you to post it. It is second nature to me. 🙂 how do I get to you my writings? How frequently shall I do this?
Excellent! All you need to do is write one post, whether it be an essay, a poem, or whatever you choose to do, and then email it to me whenever you’re done. Once I post it on my blog, you can post it to yours as well. 😀
Shout out for the Kreative Blogger Award – http://kissthemuse.wordpress.com/2012/04/19/1-147-kreative-blogger-award/
Anorexia is an evil illness but you have shown great strength by still being here. I have some experience of this and depression and although you are not in a good place right now I personally know many (over 20) teenagers who have recovered from either or both. Have faith that the soul within you wants to do what it should and have a long and happy life. I wish you well.
Thank you for your encouragment and kind words. They truly mean a lot to me. I will keep faith, and continue this battle. I wish to you the warmest of wishes.
You do realise what you have done? you have only gone and got yourself a while bunch of cyber mums out here who are gonna support you every step of the way. We aren’t about to let you give up after i replied to your post today you were on my mind all day (and dont apologise for that) you are the same age as my daughter and I want for you to have the same sort of life she does and you will. you just have to keep on fighting somewhere out there is an answer, finding it may not be easy but we will keep on looking until its found. my daughter writes poetry not much at the minute with her studies but I will post one on my blog at some point.
And I entirely appreciate that. It means a lot that you take the time to read my writings, and truly capturer what I am conveying. I am blessed to have such support and your encouragement and faith in this journey keeps me fighting. I would definitely enjoy reading some of your daughter’s poetry sometime!
You have been going through a very difficult stage, I understand.
You are a strong spirit- you are a fighter and you have to keep fighting.
Thank you–I plan to continue fighting, as I will not let this be my identity.
Hi, I hope you don’t mind I’ve nominated you for the ‘Tell me about yourself’ Award — I really think you blog is great, brave and inspiring — http://wp.me/p2asCz-8y
Of course I do not mind at all. I am actually quite honored. Thank you so much for reading.
You are very welcome. Hope that you are well and keep writing!! Good vibes your way from me 🙂